Alright... what to post about next? A few ideas have been ruminating within my mind the past few days..

The first is taking off on the last blogpost with a new one about how it is a choice we make whether to allow the experience of Love to take us into that experience where we not only see it, but see everything else by it, or whether to allow separation from it in whatever way it is we're separated, to take us in the opposite direction, where we instead must close our eyes to it altogether.

The second is to write a post about the Law of Attraction, that is- my understanding of it, and how it leads us into and out of All our relationships and eventually is designed to lead us into that final relationship where we can remain WITHIN Love in ALL our relationships. Think about that; just in writing that sentence the idea of it is beautiful to me.

I really like the distinction of Being IN Love and Living WITHIN Love that I accidentally happened upon in my writing last time. We can be IN Love, (in certain pieces) without being able to live WITHIN Love (as a whole). This results in messy relationships. One moment is bliss and the other is hell. It doesn't (necessarily) mean Love doesn't exist, Sometimes it means that it just needs perfecting- and Sometimes that perfecting can only happen in being apart from each other because it is so volatile emotionally otherwise.

This is what leads me into the law of attraction post. I think of a certain pair of friends I've had for years, and others who I've known who are now happily married with whom they would tell you without hesitation is their best friend and their soul-mate, and I think of the last post I made in hitting on the point "If two people love each other, what?" and as an example of both people being at that attraction level where they are able to live WITHIN Love with each other, I think of them.

I think, how can you write a post like that saying Love is messy, when Love is beautiful? Just look at them; That's beauty.

And what I get at, is that maybe those people are on a different level than me in that aspect. (I don't doubt it.. they've always been spiritual models of a type to me).. they are willing to do what it takes to reach that level of love; I am not.

Now, though it's seemingly now this way, and in some cases seemingly always has been with them- I also don't doubt that they've each had their share of messiness to get them to that more perfect place.

I look back on past instances in my life and I see that within them I was fine; it was the other person that was the cause of all the messiness; and I realize now, that that was exactly the issue right there. That was my heart- and therefore, that is the heart which I attracted to me... And we all know a relationship with ANYBODY where "I'm fine and it's you who needs to change" is a volcanic eruption just waiting to happen.

So, how do we get past that point and get to a point where we attract the kind of Love we want? What DOES it take? I hear it all the time "Be the person you want someone to be to you" blah blah blah.. But the thing of it is this: At whatever your stage of Being happens to be at that time and point of life, that is what you WILL attract to you, regardless of what it is you WANT to be or TRY to pretend to be otherwise.

Because, you see, the thing of it is this: Love manifests the heart. And that is the gorgeousness of It. But it isn't a matter of what you DO, so much as it is an underlying matter of what you ARE.

So, the real effort is that of changing the self- and I'm talking Complete overhaul here. "Be the person you want someone to be to you" means just that: you have to BE it; heart and soul.. Love sees through all masks and façades; Love not only mainfests the heart, Love manifests the Truth. And at times, the Truth just so happens to be Quite the Ugly Creature.

So, if we're fed up with our relationship situation, we have to take a Truthful inventory of what we are- we have to face that Ugly creature Truth front-on, directly in the face.

And you can see right there why this point of The Height of Love is one which many never reach; Our Pride is too Great. We do not want to take that inventory- because as soon as we do, it means we have no longer any one else to blame- we see that it is ME who has been standing in MY way all along; and thus we arrive at the Pinnacle of Love: Placing upon the altar that Ugly Version of ME; raising the knife to slaughter it, not being able to see how anything Greater than it could even exist; when suddenly, (And this is where it becomes beautiful, friends;) the moment we are no longer afraid of what we cannot see, and Put our Trust instead in what we HOPE to BE, is the very moment where we become changed; Our actions align with this new wave of being... of becoming, and the Universe brings to us, as well as INto us, all the manifestations of that now redeemed state.

We can now Grow in Love with our new self (and invite others to do the same), THROUGH the process of crucifying the old. -And never in ANY other way (Just trust me, I've learned this the hard way!)

The question to our many, many heartbreaks in this world very often needs to be switched around- from THEY to ME. I trust there is a point in each aspect of Love where one reaches something of perfection in it, and at that point he suffers more at the hands of the imperfections of others than he does his own, but even then, the solution to it is to realign ourselves with changing ME; my outlook, my perspective, my patience, my parameters, my state of BEING.

If we are constantly focused on renewing our hearts; constantly eyed on that target of what we hope to be, then our actions will align with it- even if we throw a dart the first few times (or even the first few hundred times) and we end up entirely off the board, at least we have the right board in sight; and as such we are throwing darts that will actually fit the board when we either A) get lucky enough to hit it, or B) Develop sufficient skill necessary, through repeated trial, to hit bullseye time and time again.


"Love can never express itself by imposing sufferings on others. It can only express itself by self-suffering, by self-purification. The law of love knows no bounds of space or time. Where love is, there God is also." -Gandhi

“Joselyn, How may I prove my love to you?”
“If you would prove your love, you should do worst.”
“My worst, what do you mean?”
“Instead of winning to honor me with your high reputation, I want you to act against your normal character and do badly.”
“Do badly?”
“Lose.”
“Losing proves nothing, except that I am a Loser.”
“Wrong!, Losing is a much keener test of your love. Losing would contradict your self-love and Losing would show your obedience to your lover and not to yourself!”
"I will not lose!"
"Then you do not love me."
(A Knight's Tale)

When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions
May wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
As the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you
So shall he crucify you.
Even as he is for your growth
So is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses
Your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and
Shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet

So let's talk about Love.

(As a zillion different emotions associated with even the Idea of it fly into me just in typing that)

Who can contain it?

Or, for that matter, explain it?

The book of John says to us “GOD Is Love”

In Les Miserable, Victor Hugo writes, “Whoever has loved knows all the radiant meanings contained
in those three letters of that word: She.” [Ladies, believe me, it works with 'He' as well :D]

And that just about encompasses it all.

I am skeptical of anyone who claims to have actually experienced What Love Is who is quick to quantify it or explain it,

Because it cannot be. It is a reverence which surpasses the power of Anything but the language of the soul to communicate it. Music gets close- Silence, perhaps closer; it is one of those things we've talked about previous to this- That Remains in its element of Spiritual Purity; transcending-this-worldness.

So how can I write a blog about Something which cannot be written?

You can write all around it. You can write almost to it, but as soon as you hit Exactly it- you cannot write anymore.

But we can try, and see just how close it is I'm able to get to it today, before that moment hits me.

And that's the other thing- you never really know the effect it's going to have upon you- you can't predict it. One moment will be the Most Blissful, unquantifiable Joyous experience of your soul Reaching up to Heaven because of it- and the next will be Simultaneously Collapsing in Realizing Just how much of a dilemma you seem to have gotten yourself into in allowing It to get inside of you.

Because, you see, the dilemma is this- When you Love something- or someone- at such a level, you start living on that level, and in that level, and that level becomes your world. That level of incommunicable happiness and joy; that level of Speaking with your heart what your toungue cannot; and that level of Receiving the same type of communication back.

So the dilemma about it is this: What of your world when that world goes away? how do you adjust back to a world where that Love-world-level's non-existant? To a world where I send out a message to you from my heart, and the understanding doesn't come back; the other person isn't on the same plane as me: a separate ray which happens into me, and Just as Beautifully happens into becoming a line with me as well. Rather, their understanding in this world is a similar line (going both directions) but on a skewed plane- and no matter how much you yearn for that same-plane understanding to come back to you again, -Even if it doesn't form a line... Even if it just collides and stops, or runs parallel or ANYTHING- you can't find it.

Now, I know in reading this you're thinking, well, the dilemma is never a dilemma at all, because ::when two people love each other::...

Please! Tell me! Because I want to know! "When two people love each other", what????

And that's just it. You can't quantify it. The very dilemma of Truly Loving Somebody is just That; "When two people love each other, what?"

It is one thing to be snaked-along by some guy (or gal) who Never Really had an inkling of Love for you at all; but it is Quite another to be Separated, for whatever reason, from One who Somewhere, at Some point, Really Loved you in some way.

That is the stuff heartache's really made of.

SoOoOOo, "When two people love each other, what?"

Well, I'll tell you what;

Love demands the best of us. The Highest of us. And we live in a fallen world, with versions of ourselves which are far below the version of ourself we ought to be.

And we coinhabit that fallen world with fallen beings who are in just that same dilemma with themselves.

And we can't for the life of us seem to work it out ourselves, so we fall into this place where we realize maybe we need someone else to help us go along. And so we take our fallen self and mix it up together with some other fallen self of our choosing, and we hope together somehow we can muster up Something together that can help to save us.

And in doing so, we come up now and then with heartbreak, and now and then with beauty, and now and then with this Shakespearean-type-tragedy that seems to be Some kind of cruel concoction of the two.

I believe in the beauty/breaking of a one-sided love; and I Know it, intimately. But I also Know the BreakingBeauty of a Love that DOES exist on both sides, but needed to Know of its existence first in order to have and find the Strength to weed out the Separating Fallenness which exists within each other now, and Bring each person to being able to reach that pinnacle of the Best of Us(Which, I've come to believe, for this earth-life, at least, is 'simply' the ability to recognize and Reach for the Best in both ourselves and others, but Still being willing to accept us at our Worst when we fall short of it) that Being WITHIN (-note the distinction) Love requires of us.

And I've thought now and then (you know, here and there- in a passing thought, and hardly more than that!), that I'd much rather have never experienced either. But you know what? I don't think that's true, anymore. You couldn't pry these experiences away from me anymore, let alone Just have me Give them up to you without even so much as a Request.

C.S. Lewis says he believes in Christianity as he believes that the sun has risen: not only because he sees it, but because by it he sees everything else.

So it is with Love;


(^Ah, and there it is, that 'can no longer write' moment):

you familiarize yourself with that world of the soul, and even if it's heartbreak that brings you to it, you then see Everything in your world from that soul-perspective. You've communed with it now, be it briefly, or lengthily, or intermittently, or whatever the situation may be; and being apart from it then, in some paradoxical kind of way, Only enables you to be brought further into it because you Know now that something more than Just what you can rudimentally see exists; you can now find and draw out the heart of other things- other people- That matter that is too pure for us to see, or to discern otherwise, and That matter which, by Whatever Grace it is we are even permitted to encouter it at all, Once it is encountered, is Too Real to ever be denied.

A blog about......

Friendship 

(If I can begin it before tearing up) 

When I think friendship I think Winnie the Pooh and Piglet and Christopher Robin

I think of C.S. Lewis' book "The Four Loves" (amazing, btw [and a quick read]- read it if you haven't!), and how he postulates within it that Friendship is the Highest Form of Love. 

I think of Woody and Buzz, 

I think of my 7 year old nephew walking alongside my 2.5 year old nephew by the hand (Why? -I'm not even sure, really; just because he can?); 

I think of LDS scripture, when it states that once we reach a certain degree of faithfulness, God no longer calls us His servants, but rather considers us His friends. 

I think of the instances of friendship in my life and of how Deeply they have touched my life, and continue to touch my life, and I think of all those examples stated previously in conjunction with them, and I find that Truly, Friendship is the basis of So much good that is in life. 


I've often found it interesting in my own life, how different friends seem to fill up different areas and soul-needs, and all work together to bring in a bigger and better and more fulfilled me. There is the friend that you can talk to about Anything, and then there is the friend you Know you can talk to about Nothing; And the friend with whom you need no longer talk about things at all (or perhaps, never needed to from the start); 

If you think about shows which have been successful in portraying the idea of friendship, you realize their success has been in creating characters whose personalities are each very distinct, but yet work together anyway. 

You have Joey and Chandler and Ross and Monica and Phoebe and Rachael.

You have Cory and Topanga and Shawn and Eric 

You have M'Lynn, Shelby, Ousier, Truvy, Claire, and Annell

C.C. and Hillary... 


Just to name a few off the top of my head. 

Each of these examples is a testament to the completing pieces of ourselves we find in those who are not only different from us, but different from each other. 

I venture to say one measure of a man's greatness is made evident within the range of the kaleidoscope of the friends he chooses. 

Without you, I am just me. Linked in friendship with you, however, you have a little bit of me, and I then have a little bit of you, and so we become connected in that soul-way (sole-way as well) of which I was talking about wanting to achieve within my writing; 

I know nothing of physics, but in my own theory, I maintain that certain matter existed and was used to put together the matter of the soul; and that this matter that was used was unique matter, unlike any other matter anywhere else... something of the same- as in all the matter we make things out of here comes from earth, even though we end up after mixing it with unique things such as plastics and textiles, -or more naturally, woods and metals. 

Such is the same with God's creation of our Spirits, we all come from the same type of spiritual matter- but in making unique Spirits we end up with woods and metals and fabrics and plastics, each different from the other. So when we interact with people we sometimes counteract each other because we are more distinctly metal and they are more distinctly plastic, so to speak; 

There are always those people who are plastic and so they hang out with all the others who are plastic, too, but then what is the product that results? Simply more of the same- no growth or evolution or Creation of anything Greater.

What I am talking about- is the "FRIENDS" type of friends- who see that they can each be themselves- their own element, while Still at the same time having each of their unique aspects work together to create something like... (**looks around**) a smart phone, for instance- which could never have been created with merely that one thing, or even all the same type of elements.

Now, sometimes you meet that same-exact type as you, and you click instanteously, because you needed more 'you'ness in your life; Sometimes, we get so alone in our uniqueness that we need that same uniqueness in which we feel alone in, brought into us from outside of us. 

Then, there is the same-as-you in Just the right ways, and the different than you in Just the right ways person that kinda takes you by surprise and is a little bit difficult for you to comprehend. You have within your mind this compendium of sorts- You just fit together Too perfectly and interlockingly. You can comprehend and appreciate their similarities (perfectly, in fact), but what you Cannot comprehend is how it is those specific similarities can co-exist with those specific differences;-

This is the kind of friendship that is more than just enriching you each separately into a smart phone- this is the kind of friendship that blends you up together mixing you up into a smoothie instead. And almost without thinking about it, (but at the same time doing so completely purposely) you each drink it in, and you absorb into you all the good nurtients from it you can, and very seamlessly and just as naturally as your body does with its waste do away with the bad. You then come to find that the effect this concoction has upon you is So beneficial, in fact, that you simply must continue drinking it. This is the kind of friendship which very naturally leads into a soul-enriching, and sometimes, even, a soul-wrenching, experience. 

This is the kind of friendship which is the basis of- or perhaps the center of- or maybe even, Love itself. 

And when you Even so much as touch on this accidental and yet also freely and independently chosen type of connection with another it encompasses the renderings of All kinds- Nay,- of Every Kind, of Awe;